This day used to mean much to me, but as the years have past, some 33 years to be precise, I am left with a feeling of "yawn". I can recall the pain and angst of facing my homosexuality during my early 20's (my selected journals of that time are here: http://thunderview.blogspot.com/p/coming-out.html).
I have no real interest to retreat or to revisit that period in my life as such a visitation serves no real purpose. For I see this rear view mirror living as being selfish and seeks to elevate my coming out as being important.
Those who are dealing with their homosexuality or bisexuality today no idea of what it was like coming out in the late 1970's and early 1980's as AIDs was starting to take hold and culling the promiscuous homosexuals who gave many gays a bad name for decades. While there is a sudden desire for gays to marry these days, such was the furthest thing from gays in this dark period of homosexuality as how much ass you could fuck and how much dick you could have in a day was all the rage. There was really no comprehension of being monogamous during this time.
But my boo hoo moments of dealing with homosexuality pale in comparison to those who were gay in the decades and centuries prior to my understanding of being attracted to men. My life experience blazed no trails or opened any doors for anyone else. But there were brave and courageous men and women who helped to make the modern gay coming out experience to be minimal and even less remarkable than my own.
I wish young gay and bisexual men and women would revisit history and to see how easy ya'll have it right now even if there remain pockets of repression.
And please note I will never desire to understand the need for gender speculation as there are studies that suggest that even after hacking off your cock or making your cunt into one, the issues of gender identification are not cured or resolved. And what a mess we've made of thousands of lives who have undergone the tragic transformation of their natural gender only to find that nothing has changed on the inside. That is why I will never advocate or be concerned with gender speculators and resent the additional letters added to LGB. There are no other letters that can equate to the sexualities of lesbians, gays, and bisexuals. I resent the bastardization of our plight with those who want to put their meat hooks into our situation. Your situations are nothing like ours and you need to fend for yourselves in your psychological issues.
I have now been so far removed from those days in the 1980's that life is normal to me loving cock and craving it. I had my true love whose promiscuous lifestyle took his life from me with AIDS in 1993. I have a really remarkable true gay friend of the past decade plus who I can share our similar life experiences of our generation. I have no need to revisit my teens or 20's and am most glad that time has given me wisdom and a healing.
Being honest about yourself is the only thing that matters and live your life as you want. And shut up about it.
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